where would i be with out you?

12:42pm: this is me.
The name is Ashley[Rochelle]Lopez. I smile like crazy. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I used to like to smoke and drink but I'm stopping back for my family. It made me to someone that i dont want to be and i cherish my husband and my gordie more than anything else in this world. My daughter can make me do anything for her and as for my husband, I have taken for granted for a while now but I've made a commitment to be the best that i can be from here on forward. I have made so many mistakes in my life but the biggest one is letting my family down. In my life friends come and go, there is no consistency except for family. I love my parents and my brothers to the max. They have been there for me through everything. They are my best friends, they are my rock. Honestly thats all that anyone needs to know about me. I've made mistakes and I'm trying to make myself a better person. So if you want to stop me or bring me down then you get the hell away cause there is no one that is going to be bring me down. I will be better, for mine and my family's sake.





this is my new way of life.
being faithful
and falling in love all over again

12:15am: honestly... FML.

if there was ever a guy that could be the biggest shit in the world he is probably nothing compared to my husband.
just because he finally got a job he wants to act like big shit.
and it pisses me off.
I've been busting my ass off to support my family.
and what do i get in return?!

nothing,
he doesnt say i love you unless i say it first
he doesnt tell me im beautiful


never get married
honestly its not worth it.

12:09am: been forever




pretty much love my daughter.
she crawls and is starting to stand.
she owns my heart.




my husband though
i hate him.
and i want a divorce so bad.
=[

Audrey is the only thing getting me through the days.
she honestly doesnt know how much i need her more than she really needs me.
i love my daughter

8:58am: life is great.
i have NO complaints..
except im lonely.


but im going to stay single for a while.

i mean im talking to a few boys but i dont want anything serious.
=]



ahhhh LIFE IS AWESOME WHEN YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE CONTROLLING IT
=]

11:17am: basically i hate life.
i dont think i have ever hated it as much as i do now.

i want to go back to high school.

i want to be able to hang out with guys again and not have to lie about it to anyone.

i want a boyfriend that doesnt get mad at me for things that i dont do

i want a boyfriend that wont cuss at me or grab me

i want a boyfriend that doesnt put me down every min.

=[[[


and these want that i wish i could have but i cant and it sucks.


ah im so miserble.

8:52am: yesterday was matt and i's seven month anniversary...
and it was going AMAZING!!!
until i messed it up..


i will admit i REALLY messed up..
to where he doesnt want to talk to me today
=[[[


fuck dude.. i guess this is what i wanted..

but why does it feel so wrong?

11:19pm: soo.
he isnt nice anymore.
he is kinda mean.

hmm....



=]

8:59am: yall should really come visit me.
please ... im gonna be SOOOO bored.
im in the lingerie section and i work from 12-8

9:50am: Its My Birthday!!

11:17am: Photobucket
This is a test post from Photobucket.com

7:41pm: does anyone have the sheet for english that has what each part is supposed to be about?
cause that would really help me out. please
:]

8:13am: a poem for u
"as we say our goodbyes,
we hold on tight,
hoping to night is not our last
u mean the world to me
be safe and careful
come back to me when im in need
and ill come back for u
u are the truest friend that i have
as u leave me now
i hope again we shall meet
crying as i let u go not knowning where its going to take u
i love you, my friend
forever and always"

be careful everyone please!

7:16pm: ( im so mean )

10:28pm: 1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. i will tell you something only the two of us will understand.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. Put this in your journal

10:43am: ( so there is this guy and i think i love him.... )

10:54am: (  so i was reading some people that have bfs/gfs and i was thinking.... )

10:23am: ( well my day was quite nice yesterday )

9:41am: HApPY bIRtHDaY DaNIeL!!!!




Happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear daniel!!!
happy birthday to you!!!!!!!!!!

3:08pm: (  hmm so we got into our first fight )

10:55pm: ( so i need help with something )

11:49am: ( so alot has been on my mind lately )

1:17pm: ( this is how i show that im bored )

6:32pm: ( ...hmm i wonder and hope this is true.. )

11:10am: ( i have offically died of boredom )

5:24pm: (  i finally did what i should have done a long time ago )